i am overwhelmed

something about God lately just seems so overwhelming. but not the bad overwhelming like all of the school work that is waiting for me to stop procrastinating and start doing… no, not like that. it’s this amazing, in awe, fearfully made sort of overwhelming.

growing up in the church is something that is invaluable… it is also something that makes me laugh, because there are so many times i took verses from the bible and thought of them literally rather than figuratively. God is an amazing figurative writer… if you don’t believe me look for yourself! i remember specifically struggling with the idea of being fearfully made.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” –Psalm 139:14

in my little elementary school head i thought that i was made to live in fear. i walked around worrying about anything that i could possibly wrap my head around. just imagine what the story of chicken little did to my poor mind. as much as i wish i could say i grew out of it... i still struggle with worry and anxiety. however, my childhood obsession with fear held so tightly onto my heart and mind, that i never even remembered the wonderfully part! as i have grown and matured in both my thinking and my faith, i realize that God did not make me to wonder or be anxious; rather, He made me specifically to spend my time being “in fear” –or in a more hip phrase, in reverence- of His creation. who am I to worry when God truly has all the little details worked out? if i am busy being wondered by His amazing creation, then i have little time to fear.

how many of the details has God worked out? well, His attention to detail is so fine-tuned, so meticulous that the tiny particles that glue the body together look like this:



yes, laminin, the protein present millions of times throughout every single body is shaped like the cross. who would have known that God has the tiniest parts of our being praising Him? wikipedia (not a reliable source in college, but definitely reliable here!) describes laminin perfectly, “Laminins are a family of proteins that are an intergral part of the structural scaffolding of basement membranes in almost every animal tissue.” literally, laminin holds us together. literally, a bunch of little crosses hold us together. wow, don’t you feel wonderful? I do… and that’s just the beginning of it.

just like promised in Colossians 1:15-17:

“He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created; things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things and in him

all things hold together.”

next time you begin to live fearfully and not in reverence, hold it together… why? because He is holding every little piece of you together. …isn’t that a fabulous thought? live in wonder of His creation around you, but also within you!

song of the day:
"i have to believe" – Rita Springer.

oh, who doesn't love this entire song... when i listen to this i can't help but think of all of the amazing things that she talks about. this is a love song about God. goodness, i love Him. if little crosses make up my entire body, i have to believe.